Monday, May 2, 2016

Lamentations of a Wannabe Writer

A blank page...that's all I see.
I took the month of April off from blogging because I was participating in Camp NaNoWriMo. For those who may not know, NaNoWriMo is meant to be inspirational support for people who want to write novels. National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo for short) takes place during the month of November, but April was kinda like a warm up.

It was my intention to get started on a novel, find inspiration, and get prepared for November where I would really make good ground on writing an actual novel. Needless to say, that did not exactly happen. 

Here's a little background: I love to write. Hence, why I blog. I've been working on various stories for many years, but I've never finished anything. I don't have a lot of ambitions in life. I don't want to be famous or have lots of money. All I want is to do is be a good wife and mother...and publish a book. 

Needless to say, writing has taken a back seat since my son was born two years ago. My vocation as a working wife and mother take up the vast majority of my time, and spare time is a rare luxury. Pretty much the only time I have to myself is my lunch hour at work. That is the only time I have to write, and I have to eat at the same time. 

I was hoping that I would be able to write at least 10,000 words during the month of April. But every time I sat down at the lunch table with my little laptop...writers block. Nothing. No inspiration. I managed to write 2000 words, way below my goal. 

I'm a little heartbroken and frustrated. If I want to make this a reality I need to change my game plan somehow. However, having a clingy toddler at home makes it very difficult to see any kind of light at the end of the tunnel. 

In the end, I'm just gonna have to hope that persistence pays off. Do what I can when I can. 

Are you a writer with young children at home? How do you balance it all?

3 comments:

  1. Unfortunately I can't help on the children front, but I took part in National Novel Writing Month this month, too! A lot of the comments in our cabin were positive reminders that, even if you didn't reach your goal, you still wrote something. And something is better than nothing. You've still written 2000 words for something that otherwise wouldn't be written, and that's a great achievement!

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  2. I have slowly realized that I am a writer. And I have 4 children at home, 12 being the oldest and 9 months the youngest. For the majority of my life, writing was never something I enjoyed doing. I was very good at it, always got top scores in school with it. But now that I'm trying to take that talent and make something of it, I find I've become paralyzed. I fear that I'm not as good as I once was, or that I was just being coddled by teachers. To try and balance it all though with my kids, I try to keep a notebook or my phone handy. Oftentimes, inspiration will hit when I'm busy with one of my kids or with household chores, so I keep these close by so I can write when it strikes and then when they go to bed I can flush it all out.

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  3. I can totally relate to this. I used to work full-time and have 2 small children. And felt like writing was always on the backburner. Now that I work part-time, and have a little more time to myself, my writer's block is in full effect. Sigh.

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